Article 7

Last Saturday it hit me that financially, I’m not where I want to be so I was a little stressed. I left one job because it wasn’t really meeting my fancy. Then I snagged a job at a bar, but that wasn’t really bringing in the money like I thought it was going to, so I applied for a positon I thought was guaranteed with another company. I’m mainly working in the evenings at the bar so I figured why not grab a job for the day time hours, keep working in the evenings, and just kill it working two jobs for a while.

So I applied for a job with a company who I had some connections with. I used to work for a company in affiliation with the company that I applied for, I had great references, I spent a good amount of time on the application, I set my intentions on getting the job all week. I called a left a voicemail for the hiring manager- I knew somebody who already worked for the company and who was putting a good word in for me in the office, I literally thought “how could I not get this?” then…a week later… I got an email from the company…

I didn’t get the job.

Plan B: Call the temp agency I’ve been working with an let them know I’m available and looking for a new position.  I called my team lead on Thursday- left her a message- she called me back as soon as I got to the gym but I missed the call. So I called her back- left another message. I hadn’t heard anything by Friday so I called the team leads, lead- left a voicemail. Didn’t get a call back. All weekend- this is on my mind and on Saturday I told my mom I was financially frustrated, but I’ve done what I could so I wouldn’t stress on it too much.

 Monday: I leave another voicemail for the agency-no response.

Tuesday: (morning) I get a call from my leads, lead “ I’ve got a job that fits your experience..” goes on to tell me more about the job and wants to know if I’m interested- “great, I’ll send them over your information”

Tuesday: (20 minutes later) “they’re interested in you- can you interview today?” me: “absolutely”

Tuesday: (afternoon) the interview goes incredibly well. “somebody will give you a call this afternoon with a few more interview questions, so be on the lookout for that…”

Tuesday: (driving home from interview) I receive a call- we speak for a few minutes and before I get off the phone I’ve been told I have the job and start the same week.

I had all the connections I needed & felt like I’d be great for the first positon I applied for- but it wasn’t meant to be. That door needed to close so Plan B’s door could open and the job fell right into my lap.

 Always have a few game plans.

Article 6

I guess I’ll just say be patient. And that’s a reminder to myself. Look this is what is it- I set a goal and I set a date I want it achieved by..(doing this creates urgency Aka affirmation action) well okay so I set that goal months ago and my date is only a few months away and I don’t exactly know where I thought I’d be come this time but I’m feeling impatient and irritated with where I am.
I left a job that was the highest paying job I ever had because I wasn’t feeling fulfilled and I wasn’t willing to grow with the company. I moved into a job that pays less but allows me more free time in my schedule to work towards micro goals (smaller things that need to get done in order to complete the actual goal) problem is that I’m realizing all my micro goals include money /paying things off…and my free time isn’t making me money so it’s like damn.

I saw an interview of a man, in a generation older than mine, speaking about millennials and how they’re impatient. Now I’m not actually considered a millennial bc those guys are 1995 babies, but it got me wondering where my patience went. But I guess it’s just the fact that the closer I get to the goal date I set, the more impatient I get because I know ‘self-set’ time is running out and I have things to get done.
But it is what it is…maybe I’ll get things done by my original goal date, or maybe I’ll need to push that date back I’ll go with which ever path isn’t forced. The easier the transition, the more ‘meant -to-be’ will happen. Smooth.

Article 5

See…had I started this article early last week I would have had to put all my good news in next weeks post. Luckily for me, I pushed this off and that was my golden ticket because timing is everything.
Okay so I haven’t been feeling fulfilled at my job. Im able to complete the work fine but my heart isn’t in it and I feel like somebody else would be better for the position, so I debated for a while and even though I didn’t have another job at the time, I put my two weeks in and I felt good about that move…so I settled in to this decision.I’m continuing taking steps toward being self employed and one thing I needed to do was get control of my schedule and my money so in the mean time I hear a club was hiring bottle girls. This was perfect timing because if I could snag a position, that could be a good little amount of money coming in. Turns out, I missed the casting call, it happen the week before and I was so frustrated..but I mean.. I chose to put in my two weeks before I had a solid position anywhere else so I really owe the frustration to myself.

I won’t lie though, as soon as I found out I missed that gig I was a little nervous because its like damn “ I’ll have a few more paychecks after my last day but I don’t have another job & I have xzy amount of bills & and I want to go on that trip…..etc..” So I decided to go home and on my way I remembered I had a application to turn in so I dropped it off and the manager said he’d call me. So..I mean that was cool. One for one so at least the day wasn’t a complete fail.

A few days goes by and I don’t get a call from the manager and I’m like dammnn man. But even through my doubt I knew I made the right decision as far as putting in my two weeks. I can’t get to where I want to be if I’m not entirely happy at the place I’m working for 8+ hours a day so it was a move I needed to make to better my internal health.

Any ways Friday rolls around and I’m thinking that since I still hadn’t heard back from the manager maybe I’ll offer my services to my job part time- that way I’d still be bringing in some money but I’d have more time in the day to put in applications and others things while still I transitioning out of that job.

My plan was to tell my boss about my idea after break but as soon as I clocked back in- he left for the day so that kinda sucked.

I got a call as soon as I came back from break but I couldn’t answer it so I listen to the voicemail on my way home. It was the manager and he called to offer me an official position! We didn’t even have an interview, we just had a nice little convo when I turned in my application and I he liked me enough to offer me a job!

This story is all to say that it’s important to make the decision that you feel is internally right for you. Bills will always be there, things will always need to get paid, but if you’re not happy doing what you’re doing then what’s the point in doing it?

Article 4

Over the past few weeks my thoughts have become really busy. A lot of the time I’m thinking about where I’d like to be and what steps I need to take to get there but other times, (in between the thoughts above) I’m just doing ‘mindless consumption’- a term I learned on a podcast the other day and it fits my feels perfectly.

Mindless consumption is scrolling, absorbing information but not really doing anything with the information- so if I’m not doing anything with this information this all these images cloud up my train of thought even when I’m not scrolling anymore. For example- I’ll go home from work with the intentions to give myself 20 minutes of chill time then I’ll start on my afternoon things (yoga, gym, class work etc) but 20 minutes turns into 30..then 40..then I look up and the clock says 5pm and its just like damn?! Ive been sitting here scrolling from Instagram to Facebook to twitter to snap, then back to Instagram ‘real quick’ to see if my muse posted a instagram story etc. That’s the shit that gets me- I get caught up in this comfort of looking at what everybody else is doing when I could be using that down time to do more research on my next steps. Or I could be learning new mantras- I could be practicing memorizing a few new yoga poses each day etc.

Its important to give yourself a certain amount of downtime after work because it helps separate different parts of the day/different parts of your day.

I realize that when I come home from work, I’m still thinking about work- and when I’m at work, I’m thinking about all the other things I wish I was doing instead of being at work (I can’t be the only one that does this) its frustrating to a point but it really just means that I need to do a better job at practicing my mindfulness- and when I realize that- which is usually pretty quick- I change my attention to my body. How my body is feeling, if I’m washing dishes I focus on the temperature of the water hitting my hands, I focus on the way my hands move, I focus on the spoon ring on my right index finger etc- and the more detail I focus on, the more I have control of my thoughts & if you can control those, then you’re in control.

So. It’s a daily practice & its an important skill and I want to get better at it bc all the stuff I mindlessly consume ends up coming up in my thoughts later in the day and I catch myself thinking about things completely unrelated to what I’m doing when I should be giving myself positive thoughts- self loving thoughts- confidence boosting thoughts based on the activity. So like for example- I was at the gym yesterday (I just got a new membership and I love it) so I was excited to workout – I finally made it to the gym after a “give-yourself-20 minutes-to-chill-then-change-into-your gym-clothes” (which turned into an hour). When I’m at the gym I’m constantly telling myself I look amazing. I feel amazing. My body is looking fantastic etc (and if you’re thinking- “that’s conceited” you have the wrong mindset) GO BACK TO ARTICLE 1. You get back what you put out- if I’m at the gym to improve my body- why would I tear myself apart the entire workout? No ma’am- I’m going build my confidence my entire workout because it pushes me and I feel good af when I leave the gym. Try it- I challenge you to that.

Article 3


Alright Article 3, let’s get it.

Earlier this week I was in the office of my apartment complex using the computer. I was in there for a minute alone then this woman came in and sat on the computer behind me. With the way the computer is angled I couldn’t see her face (there’s a glass wall that has a pretty strong reflection right in front of the computers so you can see what’s going on behind you, kinda). Anyways she’s gets on the phone and starts talking to somebody, telling them all about herself. Every detail of her business life and her resume was on point, like, yea. Then she starts asking questions to the person on the phone and all the questions were social media related.

Through context clues I made out that she was a social medial consultant and she was speaking to a girl who had her own make up line and was ready to turn it into a business and needed help with branding and promotion so she contacted said women. The girl posted a meme saying she was having a casting call- then she wrote a really long caption under it. The consultant said that people don’t really read these days, short attention span. Somebody else is always more alluring so people don’t pause long enough to read. So when posting an informative meme, don’t include a big ass caption.
So here I am three weeks into being so excited about starting these Articles it was like damn…she has a point but damn..
I’m not stopping these Articles, let’s get that straight. I’m actually going to add an audio clip of me reading each weekly Article to make it more convenient  for you to catch up with what I’m talking about while you’re scrolling through Instagram..kinda like a podcast-ish.

It will probably only take me a minute or two at the most to read each one, so, can you? Bc I would honestly appreciate that so much 🙂

Well…alright, thank you for reading/listing this far..

Article 2

I’m here at work thinking about things… I don’t want to be sitting at somebody else’s desk, at somebody else’s establishment, working for them. This isn’t to say that I’m not thankful and grateful to have a job but still..its always good to want better/more for yourself. I’m thinking through things while I’m mindlessly doing my morning work tasks, literally thinking in full detail about my personal life. Its like…okay, I made my logo three years ago, maybe four and I really haven’t done much with it..then I get frustrated that things aren’t father along than they are etc and its just like damn! Why tf have I not had this mindset this entire time…I was lazy for too long!..pisses me off honestly but now that I’m on my grind for good; its energizing.

I’m thinking about other stuff too though bc in order to have things flow smoothly, finances need to be handled appropriately. I have two loans I’m currently paying off so its probably smart to pay those off before I take out another loan for xyz. I have a lot up my sleeve for the very near future so I gotta make sure my coins are straight. It honestly feels super empowering to be on top of my shit. When I walk out of my room and look at a kitchen full of food I feel proud as hell of myself. Bills paid-check. Food in the fridge-check. Fresh laundry-check. Clean dishes-check. Vehicle check up to date-check. Money in the bank-check. Savvy little home in a safe quiet neighborhood-check… like yes, libby you go! Ah the 10 year old me would be proud.

On the other hand,I’m really hard on myself but its for good reason, its to keep myself learning and growing and moving through life properly (by my own standard of proper).I feel like a piece of shit when I’m just sitting..which isn’t good bc I need to remind myself of balance: balance of work and rest so rest is needed, rest is self-loving so I’ve gotta work on my mindset about that but you know….anyways.

People get so side tracked with everything in our face these days, so caught up in what everybody else is doing, saying, wearing, etc like chilllllll why are you so worried about them? You don’t control them; you control you-take care of you- worry about you. It sounds easy but people get so caught up in pointless shit then wonder why they aren’t farther in life…its all goes back to my first article talking about the energy you put out into the universe. That shits not a game. Its not a trend, it IS what it IS.

Branching off from ” worry about you”: make sure you’re doing what makes you happy majority of your day and if you’re not currently where you want to be then i hope you’re at least making plans, writing notes, learning, reading, and seeing what you need to do to get you where you want to be because your overall happiness is so important. ” A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.” and its thats simple.

Article 1

On a daily basis, I sway on a thin line between being really open and honest with my go abouts and things and then on the other hand I wanna be mysterious and somehow build a following that way. In my head it made sense for years and seeing as Im here, typing this way, I guess I’ve chosen the side of the line where I’m gonna be pretty open with my life through these articles..alright cool. Better.

I am Libby. My actual first name is Libby-Elise, ive always been asked if its short for Olivia, or I have a major change in mindset lately, and by lately I mean for a solid 6 plus months now and its really fucking refreshing. ( if my mom reads this article, which I know shes going to bc shes supportive af- then shes going to say something about me saying the word ‘ fucking’- but now she might not lol) Back to my mindset. Its really damn refreshing to realize that the amount of effort you put out is all of the good energy that you’ll get in return..pause.. I I’ll rewind. I always knew I was suppose to work for myself, to create a brand, to help people in some way and I’d start things then half way finish them before I was on to the next project etc. It honestly took me some years to figure out that I needed a change of mindset and some new energy.I was reading different articles one night and I kept seeing people talking about a book that was the teachings of a universal law; law of attraction. And I know its lowkey a trend to be ‘woke’ these days..well woke or shook..everybodies shook these days smh..but, the law of attraction means that like attracts like: good thoughts, feelings attract more of that into your life and vice versa. Okay so the same works with energy. The energy you emit is the energy you’ll receive. So finally, after feeling kind of lost on my grind for so long I decided to buy the book and its done me so much good. First off, it feels so much better to feel good majority of the time you know what I mean. I’m not for drama, I’m not really for name calling or all that other shit bc why? That’s sooo much negativy energy I’d be emiting into the universe and its literally commenting me in those negative ass feelings. You get back what you put out.

Libby-Elise Bowman. Shorten it and you have lebowman, pronounced EL- E- BOWE-MAN. It is who I am, and as I evolve and change..grow, so will it, and honestly..I want people to know me better..feel more comfortable with me……